Given that as the days pass and I continue to get more and more uncomfortable, it’s so easy to try to wish these last 7 weeks away. I absolutely cannot wait to hold these babies and snuggle them on my chest. To nurse them and cuddle them and stare at their little tiny fingers and toes. And yet again, wonder at the miracle of life and the awesome power of God. However, it’s definitely not time yet and I’m going to do everything in my power to keep these monkeys baking as long as I can.
When they are born, I will absolutely miss feeling their kicks and having them all to myself. I probably will also miss how quiet they are now (if we are being honest!) and how easy it is to keep them safe and secure! However I’ll admit that carrying twins while working outside the home and caring for two other children is another beast. At 31 weeks there are definitely a multitude of things I absolutely will not miss. So I made a little countdown list.
5) I have about 8 articles of clothing that fit. And four of them are my husbands clothing. Almost all of my maternity pants cut off my circulation and/or leave me with even less room than normal to breathe. I’ve left my normal wardrobe of maternity shirts behind (unless I want the bottom of my belly to stick out which is really attractive at this point believe me) and have had to scout out two super stretchy ones I found at Target. Thank you Target for saving my life.
4) I’m craving cold deli sandwiches and soft cheeses like crazy which is a little silly because it’s not like I eat them all the time normally. I also would like a Starbucks coffee as big as my head.
3) Not being able to cross my legs or sit like a lady. I sit in meetings at work and realize I look like a slob, yet there is nothing I can do about it. Oh and what joy it will be to put on my own shoes again!
2) I miss hugs from my husband and big boys! It’s hard to get close enough to me to give a good hug or find any room on my lap for story reading or cuddling.
1) I can’t wait to be able to look at them and see they are breathing. I feel like I’m in a constant state of worry sometimes not knowing if they are doing okay, if I need to start counting contractions, or if they are going to be born too early. After they are born I know there is a whole set of new worries but at least then I will have some baby snuggles to ease my concerns?
Oh and one last bonus thing. I won’t be upset if I never have to hear another stranger tell me that ‘I look like I’m about to pop. I bet it’s any day now!’ when I am only 31 weeks pregnant. With twins.
Of course, I hope it goes without saying that I will put up with all this stuff and whatever new things come up to keep these babies growing for 7 more weeks. We are so blessed to have these monkeys but this pregnancy is not without it’s challenges! 32 weeks here we come!